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My heart is broken, my marriage is broken and I feel like an idiot for putting all my trust in a human. Not knowing you’re living a life that is a lie, is so hard.

I feel like I’m doing all the right things, counseling, taking a little happiness medication, grieving, but I still feel AWFUL AWFUL AWFUL.

I feel sick ALL the time. I cry a lot, I have guilt because I feel like this is going to hurt my children, I don’t have a best friend to share all this with (since she decided to take over my life and take on my marital bedroom responsibilities). Now that I know, in hindsight I can see warning signs but I was just oblivious. I’m angry at him, I’m angry at her and I’m angry at myself for being so stupid.

Please tell me I’m Not going mad, because I really feel like I am.

When was your DD sparkle?

I'm 7 months out from finding out my husband has an affair 13 years ago with his best friend's wife.

I won't say it get easier, but you get stronger. I'm still having some very bad days but I do have good days too.

Have you decided whether you want to try and reconcile or not?

Hi, Sparkledust, not sure when your D-Day (discovery day) was?

You've just experienced a huge trauma, the consensus here is it takes 2-5 years to heal (Personally, I was on a longer path).

I remember those early days when the only reason I got out of bed every morning was to get my children off to school and get to my part-time job. I was also in school full time, my concentration went down the toilet. Literally. Every day in the shower, I would cry. I understand what you are feeling, the dread of just existing.

It will get better with time, lots of it. One day at a time, one hour at a time. We've all lived through this nightmare and have made it to the other side, a bit broken and bruised, but we've made it. You will, too.