SparkleDustJust trying to survive day by day.
Not coping well atm
My heart is broken, my marriage is broken and I feel like an idiot for putting all my trust in a human. Not knowing you’re living a life that is a lie, is so hard.
I feel like I’m doing all the right things, counseling, taking a little happiness medication, grieving, but I still feel AWFUL AWFUL AWFUL.
I feel sick ALL the time. I cry a lot, I have guilt because I feel like this is going to hurt my children, I don’t have a best friend to share all this with (since she decided to take over my life and take on my marital bedroom responsibilities). Now that I know, in hindsight I can see warning signs but I was just oblivious. I’m angry at him, I’m angry at her and I’m angry at myself for being so stupid.
Please tell me I’m Not going mad, because I really feel like I am.
1 comment posted: Thursday, August 28th, 2025
Vision Board
I met an amazing lady, recently. She is a life coach and does equine therapy, which I haven’t yet done but I am scheduling it. She also does "vision board" sessions. When she asked me about my situation and how I’m handling it, to which my reply was currently hoping for terminal cancer, she suggested I make myself a vision board. Not the kind one would make for setting goals but rather one that lets my inner me decide what I need.
I’ve been through loads of magazines and cut out pictures that make me feel something positive, honestly they were few and far between because pretty much everything just makes me feel awful these days, even things I loved, but I’ve managed to fill a page with these pictures and it does make me smile. My therapist told me to put "I MATTER" across it, which I did after I found some very cute gold letters in my daughter’s box of craft stuff". The pictures are random and I feel like they don’t really signify much but my life coach says they are my inner "gut feel" telling me what I need and where I’m headed. At the very least, it does make me smile when I look at it.
Just thought someone out there feeling lost may like to try this, too.
2 comments posted: Monday, August 25th, 2025
Newbie
New to the group
Basic back story is Hubby of almost 30 years and former BFF cheated on me (twice that I know of). Trying to heal but having a really hard time.
I started seeing a counselor immediately but the anxiety and grief is overwhelming.
Any words of advice for the anxiety would be appreciated.
SparkleDust
9 comments posted: Thursday, August 21st, 2025
